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Date: Thursday, October 22, 2009 Time: Thursday, October 22, 2009 worst day of all.
1st, idk why my stomach till my throat all burning. maybe the mac i ate this afternoon? therefore, when i reach hm . i didn't had dinner which my mum cook for me. just drank a cup of milk n hope will be fine. however , it didn't. feeling terrible. and its SUPER TERRIBLE.......... 2nd, i want to say is. CAN U ALL TELL ME WANT U GUYS ARE UNHAPPY ABOUT ME ALL TODAY!. since 3 ppl had make known to me so today. nvm. i think i shld be strong ! and not let any tears drop from nw on. it's horrible. im just changing to a person whom i dn even knw myself bah. im just getting worst. why not u all just hate me forever. n let me love myself forever.. till the day i really hate myself. and there i will be gone forever? not a bad idea bah. 1st change due to mum. 2nd change due to close frens.3rd change due to all the bfs i had.. 4th ppl say why i did't msg them for so long bo xim? great . why cant they msg me then i reply? even if ther person did sms me or i did sms them, wouldn't somebody be angry ? ALL WANT DIFFERENT KINDS OF ME! even i had tried to change to ppl likings. they dn seem to realize and just say im still the person i am.i really dk. idk what to do at all. guess i shall not do anything bah. shld i appease them? or shld i go against their wish? anw, i dn say anything dosent mean i dont hve anything to say about. i also would like ppl to change. bt will they? if they really did will they be happy about it whn u tell thm? especially some frens. i doubt so . eventhough im ok with ppl telling me. i still wont say it to others ,bt i will just accept what they are n love what they are like.however, i knw i do complain sometimes. if everyone changed n be like the perfect type whereby nobody get to say about them, why not just change ourselves to robots. as robots are so much cleverer . i knw some see this post will be totally unhappy about it. totally confused!. im just useless. ppl who say no, just admit it. |