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Date: Wednesday, December 01, 2010 Time: Wednesday, December 01, 2010 to my beloved darling
i know im irritating, i know u r irritated by me. is ok. i give u all the time u want to be single. but pls. at least let me have a chance to change to e person tht is worth to be love by u. i always believe in u coz u told me u will fight for this love. yups i cried very badly last night coz im shock. it really turn out the way i was scared of. i didn't expect. im lost. i gone mad. as for today i gone mad too. i cant stop thinking. i just hope, hope, its u. its u tht is with me all along. i dn mind not seeing u for how many days. i got scolded by my frens today ,i realise im at fault i really do. i know i shldnt find u all the time nor keep sticking to u. its because im scared. i dislike being alone. thts y i tot u wouldnt mind. i knw my mindset is wrong. coz not everyone would think this way. please. give me a chance to change to be a better person. i dn mind just meeting u once or twice a week. so please. dn leave me. i really need u. i love u. not tht i want to get angry whn u r not able to send me home. in fact im not u know. im just sad. coz i tot i could tell u lots of things on the way back. n i tot i could have a shoulder to lean on so im not scared. maybe u r right i cant get out the past i had. but im trying very hard. i did step out . if not i wouldn't have agree to be with u. but just the bad memories keep haunting me. i just wish i could get out of this with ur help. but i didn't know i hurt u . im sorry. if i knew i wouldn't show u the weak part of me. i will show u like how i shown e others. my stong front. but u know, im tired of putting up a strong front. coz im not strong at all. thank you for being with me so long. but i dw to give up on this love we had. dw to give up on the relationship we are having. thank you for loving me , loving me this ben dan. thank you for loving me thought u know how stupid i am. thankyou for standing the nonsense i gave u. thank you for cheering me up. im happy to be with u. thats all i could say to u. im sorry darling. love u like i always do. i wont let go of u no matter how hard u shove me off. this is what i want to let u knw. i might be too late. but i knw somewhere inside ur heart there is still me in it. coz i believe. i believe in the bryan wong i know all long. all i can promise is i will try change to be a better person. but i dk if i can do it. so scold me whn i did something wrong alright? but just dn leave me alone here. i hope to see u on friday. coz i want to show u e smile i had whn im with u. yups i said to talk things out. but i just want to show u my smile n go. but it seems tht im not able to anymore. i want to show u the smile i have whn u didn't push me away. u told me nt to push u away. SO DARLING! PLEASE DN PUSH ME AWAY. IM SORRY. PLEASE FORGIVE ME. PLEASE. I BEG U. I REALLY DK WHT I SHLD DO ANYMORE. DARLING PLEASE. SORRY FOR BEING ANGRY WITH U ALL THE TIME. BUT I DN MEAN IT. I WILL CHANGE. I WILL i hope u will give me a chance to show u. show u i will change for u. i will try to understand. though i gave in alot, and u also gave in. i know is tiring, but i dn mind giving in to be a better person for u to love . please give me a chance. i really want to show u the smile. the best smile i had whn im with u. i regret for my actions that had hurt u. i will go and reflect on it for all this. i dn mind if u need more time but i just want to show u my smile. whn im being loved by u. coz idk how to show u. though i know i will break dwn .but i just want to show u. hope u give me a chance. |